Trending in the Right Direction

Saturday evening I was fortunate to be able to attend the SF Giants game. Tim Lincecum was making his 4th start of the season. Since his season didn't start off well, every start he makes is under scrutiny. The team had a come-from-behind win in which he picked up the W. He was still a little shaky, but pitched better than his last start, in order words, trending in the right direction. It's kinda how my run earlier that morning went. During the week I really worked on trying to figure out how to get past the mental blocks that have been plaguing me. I talked to a lot of friends, read a couple of books, etc, etc.

Tile
Tile

{this is one of my favorite tiles at the ballpark - thanks for the great words of advice Wickum Family}

For Saturday's 10-miler, I decided to return to the City. Like my 16-miler, I took BART to the Embarcadero, dropped off my gear in a locker at 24-Hour Fitness, and then headed to the Ferry Building, my usual starting point. I usually start by running a loop to AT&T Park and back (3-miles), and then head out towards the Golden Gate Bridge. This time I decided to change it up and do the reverse. By doing so I would be "freshening" the route, and also run through Fisherman's Wharf earlier, avoiding the packs of tourists.

Although I would have preferred it to be 5-10 degrees cooler with a light layer of fog, it was a beautiful morning in the Bay. As I hoped, the streets were relatively clear and I really enjoyed the miles. I felt calm and relaxed and it almost felt effortless.

Just before the Fort Mason Hill I decided to run down the pier that is one of my most favorite places in the world. Here, in this one spot, you can see the iconic San Francisco sites like...

Ghirardelli_Sq
Ghirardelli_Sq

...Ghirardelli Square...

Alcatraz
Alcatraz

...Alcatraz...

Skyline
Skyline

...the City Skyline, including the Transamerica Building and Coit Tower...

GGB
GGB

..and of course, the GGB...

It's my happy place and reminds me why I love living here so much.

I continued on, running to the Marina Green. Doyle Drive, leading up to the GGB was being demolished and the air quality at Crissy Field wasn't so good so I stopped just short of Crissy Field, refilled my water bottle, and then headed back.

There were periods where my mind did wander and I had to fight to stay focused. It was a struggle but I just kept reminding myself to enjoy the moment. I tried not look at my pace, or worry about form or fight myself in anyway. Instead, I just counted all the reasons why I love living here.

At 7-miles I hit the Ferry Building again so I continued on to loop AT&T Park to finish out the last 3 miles. Near the end, although I wasn't physically tired, I could feel the old negative thoughts creeping into my mind and I had to work hard to rebuke them. It wasn't easy but I did the best that I could - better than I have in a long time. And when I finally reached 10-miles I felt so happy.

For the first time in what felt like a long time, I didn't give up on myself and I didn't feel defeated. I'm starting to feel a little more composed and finding the fight in me again.

After the run I bought a bottle of water and walked behind the Ferry Building to wait for Sesa. She is a pacer with Team Run 365, the training group for the San Francisco Marathon. They had run across the GGB to Sausalito and were taking the Ferry Back to the City and we had planned to meet for a post-run lunch.

As I sat there waiting for her, I soaked up the sun, appreciating all the good things that had happened that morning.

My last 2 runs have gone relatively well. Baby steps, but trending in the right direction.